Everytime there is devestation in the world, I am reminded how blessed I am. It brings to mind how small my problems are in comparison. Why am I complaining? I could be in Afganistan, Kabul, Rowanda or Haiti. I could be hungry, homeless, hated....but I'm not. Everything that I have is a blessing. Every breath that I take, though not even deserved, it freely given to me by my Father in Heaven. Instead of talking about, whining about, lamenting about what I don't have...I should be mindful of what I do have. Things can be taken away from you. People that you love can suddenly be gone. I will keep this foremost in my mind when I get that pity party invitation.
Forgive me Father for taking advantage of your love, grace and mercy. I never want to take those things for granted. I thank you, love you and praise you for everything big and small.
Amen
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
day 12
Why is it that women let themselves go? I don't mean not getting your hair done as much or that it's been a month since your last mani or pedi but really letting go? Now I can understand women with small children in the house. Who has time for primping when you've got a 3 year old, a 5 year old and a 7 year old needing ALL of your attention. (although...if you're married, you have to remember what you did to hook him, right. Also, he might want to pitch in and help you out a little sometimes)
I am talking about empty nesters and those of us who are still single or those single due to circumstances. Why don't we do what we used to do? I still do SOME things that I used to do but I am getting a little slack and I have NO excuse. I used to be a better dresser. I'm not really taking care of myself as much as I used to. Not getting proper sleep, not really keeping the house as clean (although it's not bad...yet). What happened? I don't really know. I don't feel bad about myself or depressed. Maybe I have just gotten complacent about me. I still take care of my skin and my hair is all natural now and I take care of it but the rest of me??? well I need to really step up.
Not because of some man but for me. I have watched attractive women just let themselves go so far away from what they once were that you hardly recognize them anymore and they just seem so unhappy to me. I don't want to be that woman. Not now and not 10 years or 20 years from now.
So what's my solution? I am going to make an attempt and 'righting' some things. It is amazing to me how seemingly lazy that I have become. I try not to get upset with myself but it kind of difficult. Since I am not a very organized person, that is the first thing that I need to work on.
hmmmm that's all I'ma say tonight.
GN
I am talking about empty nesters and those of us who are still single or those single due to circumstances. Why don't we do what we used to do? I still do SOME things that I used to do but I am getting a little slack and I have NO excuse. I used to be a better dresser. I'm not really taking care of myself as much as I used to. Not getting proper sleep, not really keeping the house as clean (although it's not bad...yet). What happened? I don't really know. I don't feel bad about myself or depressed. Maybe I have just gotten complacent about me. I still take care of my skin and my hair is all natural now and I take care of it but the rest of me??? well I need to really step up.
Not because of some man but for me. I have watched attractive women just let themselves go so far away from what they once were that you hardly recognize them anymore and they just seem so unhappy to me. I don't want to be that woman. Not now and not 10 years or 20 years from now.
So what's my solution? I am going to make an attempt and 'righting' some things. It is amazing to me how seemingly lazy that I have become. I try not to get upset with myself but it kind of difficult. Since I am not a very organized person, that is the first thing that I need to work on.
hmmmm that's all I'ma say tonight.
GN
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Day 11
I love:
1. Jesus...thank you Lord
2. The smell of freshly cut grass
3. That butter popcorn smell at the movies
4. My bed after I change my sheets and put baby powder inbetween the mattress and mattress pad.
5. the way my skin feels after I put shea butter all over it.
6. McDonalds french fries or basically any french fries...unfortunately
7. the smell of coffee brewing
8. the smell of tea brewing
9. the smell of bread baking
10. the smell of Ivory soap on a man's freshly showered body
11. Chocolate...everything about it LOL
12. A really good book
13. documentaries about travel and well..just about anything
14. babies...man, they are so cute
15. Puppies
16. Summer nights
17. sitting by a water front(water is very soothing)
18. a beautiful landscape (seeing it from a distance)
19. Pajamas (I have lots and want lots more)
20. New Panties...I always buy some when I go shopping
21. Music
22. Writing
23. drawing (even though I'm not very good at it)
24. Old sit coms
25. Laughing
26. Staying in nice hotels (though I don't get to do it often)
27. My blankie (yes I have a blankie like Linus)
28. British Mysteries
29. my natural hair
30. sleeping late when I'm off work
31. NPR and PBS
32. the way it smells outside after it rains
33. how my car looks when I get it washed (which is not often enough)
34. the smell of dried Eucalyptus leaves
35. Nectarines (the taste and the smell)
36. Melons (honeydew and cantalope)
37. Pineapples
38. Pure Apple Juice (like Simply Apple)
39. Seafood
40. oh yeah...my family LOL
41. My house
Okay with the exception of the first one...these are not in any order of importance.
Good night....
*how many days left?
1. Jesus...thank you Lord
2. The smell of freshly cut grass
3. That butter popcorn smell at the movies
4. My bed after I change my sheets and put baby powder inbetween the mattress and mattress pad.
5. the way my skin feels after I put shea butter all over it.
6. McDonalds french fries or basically any french fries...unfortunately
7. the smell of coffee brewing
8. the smell of tea brewing
9. the smell of bread baking
10. the smell of Ivory soap on a man's freshly showered body
11. Chocolate...everything about it LOL
12. A really good book
13. documentaries about travel and well..just about anything
14. babies...man, they are so cute
15. Puppies
16. Summer nights
17. sitting by a water front(water is very soothing)
18. a beautiful landscape (seeing it from a distance)
19. Pajamas (I have lots and want lots more)
20. New Panties...I always buy some when I go shopping
21. Music
22. Writing
23. drawing (even though I'm not very good at it)
24. Old sit coms
25. Laughing
26. Staying in nice hotels (though I don't get to do it often)
27. My blankie (yes I have a blankie like Linus)
28. British Mysteries
29. my natural hair
30. sleeping late when I'm off work
31. NPR and PBS
32. the way it smells outside after it rains
33. how my car looks when I get it washed (which is not often enough)
34. the smell of dried Eucalyptus leaves
35. Nectarines (the taste and the smell)
36. Melons (honeydew and cantalope)
37. Pineapples
38. Pure Apple Juice (like Simply Apple)
39. Seafood
40. oh yeah...my family LOL
41. My house
Okay with the exception of the first one...these are not in any order of importance.
Good night....
*how many days left?
Monday, January 11, 2010
Day 10
Today was a very stressful day at work. I just wanted to come home and go to sleep; instead I ate a good salad and read a steamy book for a couple of hours. I am determined that tomorrow will be different. One thing that I need to do is get organized. Second thing, set some boundries for all of the inturruptions that go on. Then I can set some goals and actually reach them. It's Monday and already I want it to be Friday. LOL
I was thinking about taking Tuesday off but that would put me that much more behind and there is really no point in wimping out right now.
My birthday's coming up in another month and I am already thinking about my little spa excursion that I have done the past couple of years.
I am thinking about doing a detox diet for about two weeks (a healthy one) so I have been researching them. Mostly the healthy ones are just eating right and eating mainly veggie. It looks do-able. Also, I need to get back on track with working out but by the time I get home, I am way too tired and getting up earlier...well I have gotten out of the habit with it. I am going to try to get to bed earlier tomorrow or Weds so I can see if I can get up and do a morning walk. (like I used to do) It made me feel better and it was a good way to start off the day.
Okay, it's 10pm and past time for me to get my butt in the bed.
I was thinking about taking Tuesday off but that would put me that much more behind and there is really no point in wimping out right now.
My birthday's coming up in another month and I am already thinking about my little spa excursion that I have done the past couple of years.
I am thinking about doing a detox diet for about two weeks (a healthy one) so I have been researching them. Mostly the healthy ones are just eating right and eating mainly veggie. It looks do-able. Also, I need to get back on track with working out but by the time I get home, I am way too tired and getting up earlier...well I have gotten out of the habit with it. I am going to try to get to bed earlier tomorrow or Weds so I can see if I can get up and do a morning walk. (like I used to do) It made me feel better and it was a good way to start off the day.
Okay, it's 10pm and past time for me to get my butt in the bed.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Day 9 (part II)
It had been 3 months since her move to Charleston and she was settling in pretty well to her everday routine of work and getting her house the way she wanted it. Her job at the University was a dream. She worked for Dr. T. Williams who was the Director of Student Affairs. She liked Dr. Williams. He loved his job, had about 5 different degrees and had encouraged her to pursue her Masters. She even met Kim and LaDonna, a couple of sisters who grew up in the area and made it their personal mission to share with her everything the area had to offer. She met them at a campus faculty meeting and they hit it off right away. Kim was a Financial Aid Officer and LaDonna was one of the Univerisities most popular professors. They were twins but as different as night and day. One thing that they had in common was their love of cooking and music.
Val even managed to talk then into giving her cooking lessons, which she so richly needed. How was she going to get a man, if she can only scramble eggs and make toast? You can only make a brother so many sandwiches before he gets tired of them.
Sadly, she had not run into JD again after their encounter at Java and she had no idea what she did with the card that he gave her. What was the name of that place on the card?
Val even managed to talk then into giving her cooking lessons, which she so richly needed. How was she going to get a man, if she can only scramble eggs and make toast? You can only make a brother so many sandwiches before he gets tired of them.
Sadly, she had not run into JD again after their encounter at Java and she had no idea what she did with the card that he gave her. What was the name of that place on the card?
Day 9 (part 1)
I was supposed to write last night and I had every intention of doing so but...hmmm I don't know what happened. So today I am going to write twice! This morning I was thinking about bullies. Not necessarily the childhood ones but worse..the adult ones. (but let me give you a little background for a minute)
When you think back on your childhood bully, you probably have some pretty horrible memories. In elementary school there was this girl named Yvonne. She was bigger than the rest of us and trust me I tried to be in the very opposite direction of anywhere she would be. She had a habit of picking out a kid each week and telling them that at 3pm she was going to kick your butt on the playground. I had escaped her wrath but then one day....I cannot even convey to you how terrified I was. It was bad enough being bullied at home so school was my escape from that then....Yvonne was after me. I thought that she was going to kill me. Obviously, it didn't happen (and she didn't catch me).
One of my many pet peeves (and God knows that I have a few) are adult bullies. Now, I have a pretty strong personality so I know that I have to sometimes temper myself but what type of grown person preys on other people??? Who in the blank do they think that they are?? I work with one and trust me...she and I butt heads quite a bit. She is in a position of authority (over me) so there's a added hurdle there. We have already had a couple of issues that resulted in me having someone give her a 'good talking to' so I know that I'm on 'the list' with her.
What am I going to do? Well, I prayed about it. (mainly so I won't jump on her lol) God told me to insulate myself. She can say whatever she wants. I don't have to react to it. He also informed me that nobody told me that I had to be her best friend. Respect her authority, make sure she respects you (there are company guidelines for that) and mostly don't swallow her negative energy. It's already stressful out here. If I insulate myself, (which is what the bible talks about when it references putting on the Armor of God) I won't let that garbage in. Why should I stress myself out with her insecurities? Now, this is not easy some days but when she starts talking ish I try to go to my 'happy place'...IMMEDIATELY. It's just 8 hours out of my whole day...I still have 16 hours left that I don't have to look at her, deal with her or talk to her.
whew...I feel better just saying that. lol
(blog two later)
When you think back on your childhood bully, you probably have some pretty horrible memories. In elementary school there was this girl named Yvonne. She was bigger than the rest of us and trust me I tried to be in the very opposite direction of anywhere she would be. She had a habit of picking out a kid each week and telling them that at 3pm she was going to kick your butt on the playground. I had escaped her wrath but then one day....I cannot even convey to you how terrified I was. It was bad enough being bullied at home so school was my escape from that then....Yvonne was after me. I thought that she was going to kill me. Obviously, it didn't happen (and she didn't catch me).
One of my many pet peeves (and God knows that I have a few) are adult bullies. Now, I have a pretty strong personality so I know that I have to sometimes temper myself but what type of grown person preys on other people??? Who in the blank do they think that they are?? I work with one and trust me...she and I butt heads quite a bit. She is in a position of authority (over me) so there's a added hurdle there. We have already had a couple of issues that resulted in me having someone give her a 'good talking to' so I know that I'm on 'the list' with her.
What am I going to do? Well, I prayed about it. (mainly so I won't jump on her lol) God told me to insulate myself. She can say whatever she wants. I don't have to react to it. He also informed me that nobody told me that I had to be her best friend. Respect her authority, make sure she respects you (there are company guidelines for that) and mostly don't swallow her negative energy. It's already stressful out here. If I insulate myself, (which is what the bible talks about when it references putting on the Armor of God) I won't let that garbage in. Why should I stress myself out with her insecurities? Now, this is not easy some days but when she starts talking ish I try to go to my 'happy place'...IMMEDIATELY. It's just 8 hours out of my whole day...I still have 16 hours left that I don't have to look at her, deal with her or talk to her.
whew...I feel better just saying that. lol
(blog two later)
Friday, January 8, 2010
Day 8
I thought that I would have more dating stuff but I don't feel like talking about that t0day. I was reading another blog and saw that someone had tagged her to do 10 honest answers so that is what I am feeling today. Here are 10 very honest things about me:
1. I am a terrible procratinator.
2. My eating habits are better than they were but I have a long long way to go.
3. I hate going to bed early or getting up early on the weekends
4. I've always felt like I was different from everybody else...and not always in a good way.
5. I only like to go shopping when it's for a specific reason. I hate window shopping unless I am comparison shopping.
6. I am embarrassed that I snore.
7. I love eating out and I probably do it too much.
8. I want to be a writer but I have committment issues with it (along with the procrastination thing)
9. I can't get through my day without music.
10. I try to be humble and grateful since I know that God has given me so much more than I deserve.
24 days :)
1. I am a terrible procratinator.
2. My eating habits are better than they were but I have a long long way to go.
3. I hate going to bed early or getting up early on the weekends
4. I've always felt like I was different from everybody else...and not always in a good way.
5. I only like to go shopping when it's for a specific reason. I hate window shopping unless I am comparison shopping.
6. I am embarrassed that I snore.
7. I love eating out and I probably do it too much.
8. I want to be a writer but I have committment issues with it (along with the procrastination thing)
9. I can't get through my day without music.
10. I try to be humble and grateful since I know that God has given me so much more than I deserve.
24 days :)
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